The Days Of Love and Silence Are Gone

My mother was 'unhappy' that I was tired when she rudely awoke me from a nap to proclaim that dinner was ready. Yeah well of course I'm going to be tired and 'out of it' when you just walk up to me and scream at me to wake up to eat. But she kept saying I had an attitude and that I needed to snap out of it or she'll smack it out of me. I keep ebbing her to do it in my mind, because if she ever lays a finger on me I'll just walk right out the door and not return. 

I can't take her anymore. I don't think I'll last two more years. I don't think I can will myself to survive that much longer. Isn't it bad enough I've had to put up with her for seventeen years of my life?I can't do it. I can't.